Today I s a good day. Before I go out I was thinking about the risk that is around me to day. Last night had bad experience talking to my sister, supportive and very disappointing for me.
I know that this sort of situation might trigger the beast in me, and wake him up. So I am more carefully now and look for signs of the gambling beast tricks trying to make me go back to his word.
Money is our drug, fuel to gambling, with no money there is no chance of gambling.
on Thursday I received some money, over 2 k, and I knew if I do not act fast, Ill will find a way to break all the barriers, travel to another city, and so on, so I decided to spend it on my debt and do support some family members with that.
The question is what happened to the person who used to keep my money, credit cards?
He used my money for himself once so i took the card back from him. he meant to put it back but I couldn’t trust him any more. So I found some one else To keep my card and I can check my account on line.
I have saved this money, at £40 a week over the last one year, main reason to go and see my mother after 20 years of being away.
I came here to support group today as I was confused a little, about my feelings, anger, and frustration. Talked to harry and I think it did help, there for I came here to forum and started writing about it.
If you are angry for any reason, your fault or some one else, come here and start writhing about it, instead of running out with money in your pocket.
Writhing about it will help to give yourself time to think about the situation and not to rush to making a bad decision.
Thanks to this site that brought us together to help one another in difficult time.
