[vera]

Thanks, Kin, IDI, Meghna, RG, Charles, Monica .
My first update since July 7th.
Suffice to say, I lost everything. As we all know a CG will NEVER win.
I am trying to be normal/proactive today.
It is very difficult to re enter the Real World but the alternative is bleak.
I forced myself to walk for 90 minutes this evening -a walk that I used to do in half the time and at every step my body ached , the clothes were stuck to me due to the humid weather and my unfit state ( due to the inertia that comes with gambling) but at least I was moving and breathing in fresh air instead of sitting like a zombie waiting for a “big win”.
My Debit Card is blocked so no more deposits.
Just for today, I will not gamble.