It has been 12 days more or less, that I have been clean. Although all my worries still are on top of my head, but I can feel that I have a clearer understanding of my real difficulties. It would help me in my recovery to, not to be too worry about what I don’t have, but to concentrate on what I can do, with what I have, to make life easier on myself and people I love. For quite some times opening my windows to the fresh air was making me sick. Today I welcomed the fresh air in my room and quite enjoyed, breathing in the goodness of Oxygen in my lung.
I am still taking the baby steps within my recovery days, but am happy that I can see and feel the affect on my anxiety level and the way I feel talking to other people. I am more confident, my mind is clearer. I do not sit and blame anybody or myself for what happened in the passed, but looking forward to what life has to offer me in the future.
Today is a better day without the gambling behaviors.
One day at a time.
Sam.
