Thank you all for your support long time good friends you all are.
I share alot of my fears and worries hear more then face to face.
I did manage to speak and got excepted for a mental health appt to see a Dr.for a one time visit only,this does not include and follow up treatment in any way,but rather more to get me clearance to go back to work.
On feb 10 my stepdad around noon disapeared ,search and rescue and all the emergency help in a two day search for him.But he was not found,search is called off ,but officer said they will call in a cadaiviar dog.
We have been at my moms side ever since.
The unknown is so hard.He for months had been talking of suicide .
Mom said she has not left his side since July not for one day,but on the 10th she had to go to a meeting in town,she convinced him to stay home tellling him he would be more comfy at home.he agreed.But when she returned he was not there.
Im so sad for her.she needs closure .and yah so do we.
Wish he left a note .even a sentence.
So needless to say any healing on my time off is now officially gone,my nerves are shot.My depression is falling hard on me ,cause i can feel my moms pain so badly.
We are all pulling together as a family right now.wich is really nice to see.
Say a prayer for Don that he is not suffering somewhere.
thank you once again for listening.
