Till heals ALL. So cliche but it’s the truth bro. Trust me when I say please do not chase that 15. Should you chase it there are two outcomes. The first outcome is you might get it back. If this happens, your brain will then tell you you are back at even, now you will convince yourself you can try again to make some money, that’s when the addiction comes in, because , well- you just might. Truthfully man. The wins are actually worse than the losses. The wins are what trick our brains into thinking we can make a living off gambling, “I won 50 before, surely I can do it again” that’s your mind playing tricks on you, don’t believe it man. As long as you have bankroll to gamble, it’s only a matter of time before you lose every last penny- inevitably. Your second outcome is bad too, you will chase the 15, until you lose every $ of savings you have in your name at this moment. And guess what? You will then tap into your credit, yes.. you will use the banks money to try and get your money back.. this is exactly what I did. It worked, (once) – this was the worst thing that could have happened to me, because i told my mind I was even again (let me try again to play smarter) wrong! The end result is always the same, you will lose, we all will lose, there is not one person I know who has successfully come out on top as a gambler. The only people you know who have, hit a jackpot (sheer luck) ONCE, and never gambled again. It’s 1%. Should you chase that 15, you will lose it, you will lose every available fund to your name just like I did in 5 months time. All of my savings , maxed out (25k credit card) maxed out (11k credit line) maxed out (3k) over draft. Please I beg you with every ounce of my soul to stop now , I don’t wish that pain and prolonging this addiction for anyone in this entire world. I hope you can feel the rawness in this post, I have a journal with about 40 members telling me to stop chasing, around the 6-8 month mark of my one year binge, 12 months of hell man. I didn’t listen to most, there were periods of 1-2-3 months clean time where I tried so hard, but my brain would get highjacked and I just couldn’t accept the money gone( initially 3 k loss that turned into over 40.. of the banks). There is one thing you can do right now that will keep your 15k loss at 15k, and put your gambling to rest forever. Put blockers on all of your devices, give your cards to someone close to you that can manage your finances just until all urges are gone, and please do not I repeat do not have access to any credit cards or lines of credit, you will tap into that should you decide to chase your losses with your HARD earned savings. There is one way to make money in this life and that’s through hard work. The reward of hard work is so much more satisfactory than praying and wishing on the flip of a card, spin of a wheel, the team You THINK is going to win, to try to get rich. Trust me, nobody will get rich that way, and if they win… it’s a loan.. the bookies and casinos know its only a matter of time before they get that winning $ back, plus all of your own.. you experienced it first hand, but trust me.. it can get a lot worse. Gym is a great outlet man… Weights and cardio. I don’t know if you play sports, but organized pick up is great… I love basketball and I joined a league that had refs, scoreboard , felt like I was playing back in highsschool, nothing like that dopamine rush of hitting A game winner in a playoff game. Look into it if you do enjoy playing anything. Sorry for the long post man, I really want to try to help you… because I’ve been through hell and back this year, and I don’t want you to go through it too… Take care of yourself.
