Thanks to all who responded to my first post ever on the internet..i appreciate your feedback..it means alot as you all know when you cry out for help and feel like no one is there to support you..so since my post..on Saturday one day after my post i attended my first GA meeting..i felt like a loser and the only person with a problem as i was the only person there besides the meeting coordinator. The coordinator talked mainly about themself. Yet that was ok as i dont know what to expect..i will go to another one Thursday. .it is a first step..today i go to a counseling on addictions. ..i planned on banning myself from the casinos thats my gambling place yet havent done it..i feel like i want all the free gifts..tickets to zz top. Jay leno..warrant and wringer..brew fest..hotel stays that if you had to buy them would be $1000.00 per weekend..Tiffany bracelets. Bonney and dourke purses for my gf..the list goes on including eating crab legs shrimp turkey etc free for two more years..i am holding out for the gifts..someone put some common sense into me..they give me about $200.00 per week free spend money as well. But that is my next step..just got make myself believe i wont go unless i get the free gifts..someone help me make sense of my irrational thought process..i will say what a great site my own experiences are shared by many on here but havent see a post about giving up $1000s of dollars in free gifts. I look foward to your responses.
