You can think positive thoughts till the cows come home and it will not make a difference to reality when reality is what it is. I think of it like this, when someone is dying and maybe has a few days to live, you can say all the positive things you like and it makes no difference to what is. You can even believe them to be true. We can only work with what is and take it from there.
What is for me
I have some health issues, new ones having gotten over the old ones! I am seeing what I can do to help these but cannot even consider working till my brain fu cations properly
I have ended a relationship with an l,d friend cos all it was doing was not understanding me and where I am but trying to force me into who I used to be. As she said to me the other day,I want you to be back who you were. So do I but I am not there.
I have some money and am not destitute, now that is an improvement. The Lord sure works in mysterious ways. That job was never meant to be but it did provide some much needed income.
Soon I will have to take a reality check as to what is possible. I have changed, I know that. Part of recovery has been about being real and authentic so when I work I am environment that isn’t and is fake I don’t want to do it. It is like I can’t be fake any more.
It feels like things are leaving me and I know that God always replaces things when things move out of our lives. I w dear what that means. I feel alone with all this. I need to just let go I guess.
