I havent posted for a little while as I have been focusing on me. Managed to fall down the stairs and break my foot so i’m very much out of action and really has opened my eyes as to how much I can only look after myself.
CG has been very frustrating. Initially, no help with getting to hospital, no checking I was okay and just the excuses that he would obviously be there if he could, but its too hard for him to get to me. However, even when he was able to get to me, he didnt come. Just so frustrating that, when I really do need him, he just wasnt present. it was so easy for him to detach himself from what was happening with me.
I know that that is my own issue and that he just isnt capable of offering me what I need when I am struggling.
Once i was in front of him though and he has to face up that i needed help, he was amazing. checking on what i need, breakfast in bed. taking on extra driving so i dont have to do it. he was amazing, why couldnt he just do that from day 1 instead of fighting against me!?
This week is filling me with dread. Cheltenham festival ending with a lovely double whammy on Friday of Cheltenham Gold Cup and Paddy’s day 🙁 I need CG as I want to visit my mum for her birthday and he knows this and ive set out clearly what I need. He has already said that the only way he will be sober is because of his son’s karate class that evening and he cant turn up to that drunk. so making it nice and clear that if he does stay out of the pub, he wont be doing it for my benefit….
Just dont know the best way to handle this week, apart from keep my distance…