Again a very busy week and I seem to be posting once a week now but ha vent managed to do a group this week. Missed my departmental Xmas party cos I was on yet another deadline. Did manage to start Xmas shopping though.
Today I feel irritated as yet another request for today from my sister. I have now given her 150 quid towards Xmas. I strongly told her not to ask me again and to sort out her life. This is ruining our relationship and I am fed up with the whiney, I am in such a stAte texts. Like I have to accept my financial mess so does she. Aside from God I rely on no one else to sort it out and she needs to to same, I feel she is used to being poor me with everything and she needs to grow up. Since August every two weeks a request for money and for times now in two weeks for Xmas.
My mum rang yesterday and talked about her wishes after she dies. And she wants me, not my older sister to sort her affairs out. She told me the value of things in her flat that she doesn’t want my sister to get hold of and sell for nothing. I accepted what she was saying and just prayed that she lives for a few years more. I have thought about the trip to her home,and of Austria but I am not sure if she will be able to do. I will still try for the summer though. I didn’t feel depressed about it but had bad dreams last night about my sister and me having bodies buried from years ago, I wonder what the significance of that is…
My son has been working and said he respects my views about no angry men in the house, and things have settled. He is here rent free until end January till he gets back on his feet, but pays half for the electricity.
So I feel slightly exasperated this Sunday morning.
