This was not an easy month not to gamble. Is there such thing as an easy month not to gamble? Let’s just say, “This was a difficult month.” The last couple of days have been brutal. I had time and space to gamble, and that is what I wanted to do. What I didn’t have was access to money, and for that I am very grateful. I still wish that I could commit to the idea of never gambling again. Still, I am committed to recovery, and taking my recovery and my life one day at a time. I don’t count days. But, I love looking at one calendar month and knowing I did not gamble for that month. Thank you, Cat, for these monthly pledges. I had such intense urges to gamble yesterday and then again today. I kept thinking, “Just hold on…two more days and January will be gamble-free!” …and so it was, and for that I am counting my blessings. Tomorrow begins a new month, but also, it begins a new day. We always have a new day…a new day to be gamble free!
