Theres so much great advice and support been given to me by you guys I cant say thank you all enough and I am taking it on board
i am very resolute in making my recovery mine and no one elses and i know the pitfalls in the past which have drawn be back to the dark side
so with all that in mind using my past experiences good and bad will help me to navigate my way through to a successful outcome.
however that said the one thing that i have definitely needed was support from freinds and family but sadly that was one thing I destroyed in the past .
so every aspect of my life since I.ve done stuff on my own and never asked for help from others but all ways helped without hesitation.
I.m fully aware that not having friends and family support network has been one trigger when I.ve been lonely I also know when gambling in the past this has been an advantage as I never got bothered by anyone to go about my addiction .
so although i.m having difficulty with my partner and her family understanding and supporting me t the moment I am working on it and with patience from me and time I.m hoping they will see the changes and start trusting ,understanding and supporting me which i know i need so much
but the flip side I need to get strong for myself first so I can have the confidence to stand up for myself and not keep doing what others want
I know this caused me to become frustrated and I would feel low cause I couldn’t say no to others .
so I know I.ve got much work on my own personal well being (innerstrength , self confindence ). so I can feel good about myself and strong and be heard to be able to truly beat this .