This is going to take some growth and learning to get through, but you cannot chase wins and you cannot gamble with “just a little bit”.
I’m going to sound very blunt here, but you’re kidding yourself and asking for trouble. Stop looking at the money you’ve lost. This cannot be fixed with gambling. Instead look forward. As your salary comes in you will slowly replace your savings. This is the only way to do it.
Block yourself from any alternative finance. Tell your wife you are having the urge to gamble. She’ll help and be grateful for your honesty.
If you haven’t already, block yourself from EVERYTHING possible.
Right now you are in a tricky space where the habit isn’t out of your system and you haven’t learnt how to live without gambling. Sadly addictions always pose a risk to us, but you can move on from this and out of this really tough time!