THe weeping , bitter me of the past number of days is gone and happy me is back , although I think I could still cry easily .
I am having such a lovely time .
I did walk past a casino and the thought did enter my mind but I know I won’t go in there . It kinda doesn’t appeal to me right now .
Today is day 30.
In a month I have not gambled on anything or taken part in any free raffles anywhere .
A month in an my mind is filled with hair style , nails and clothes .
It sounds shallow but I need to get myself looking as good as I can again – for me .
I also need to visit the dentist badly as my smile is not so good after years of neglect – however I have decided it get my facial veins Lasered first !
I guess it means my mind is returning to my normal bimbo mode now – I have also decided to buy myself a nice watch and a pandora bracelet . Is this a sign I am thinking normally about money- the bracelet this month and the watch for Christmas I think – or is this a sign I am being impulsive ?
Even before I gambled I would never buy myself things like this – I would have bought myself food , alcohol and gambled but not so much nice things – not for a lot of years .
I have got inspiration for a room I never knew what to do with and am going to start as soon as I go home – my whole
House is getting a facelift and I am so sure I will do it I have invited guests for a weekend early next year – so keep asking me what I have done please ?
That’s about it – I am rambling today ..
Feeling relaxed and happy(ish)