This Is the first time I am writing about the big “D”
Some call it addiction, some call it sin, some call it temptation, some call it the big “D”. Every second, it is trying to take over my life.
I experience the powerful big “D” tonight, it managed to change my mind and it brings back many old memories in the past when it come out to seek and destroy. I recognize the same power tonight.
I didn’t know the dark side was so POWERFUL, I didn’t know it can intervene what I was doing right and change my mind to do wrong. On the surface, it looks like temptation but it was the big “D” behind everything. It stop me at the critical moment when I was going ahead to do the right thing.
On the surface
When I was over power and possessed by it, I cannot THINK clearly, I cannot SEE clearly. I couldn’t STOP when I want to go ahead to do the wrong thing but I STOP when I wish to do the right thing.
Under the skin
When I want to go ahead to do the right thing, something intervene and stop me. I want to do the right thing but it was so POWERFUL , it can change my mind. I don’t want to do the wrong thing but it was so POWERFUL, it can change my mind.
If there was light, there must be darkness but I was not mindful and aware of this dark force so I never give the dark side THE ATTENTION IT DESERVE. I have never put in any effort to FIGHT the dark side. I never thought I need to. I never thought that it was that POWERFUL. I never thought it can stop me or change my mind. I knew so little about the dark side.
I thought since I knew the light, I was safe from the dark sides and I do not need to FIGHT the dark force. I was so naïve and so wrong.
The dark side is a very scary powerful force. It can suck and PULL ME OUT to try and destroy me.
There was two power that was greater than me. The dark force was a power much greater than me. I need protection from A GREATER POWER in GOD.