Thanks for posting, Kin, IDI and Jen.
How do I feel today?
Well, I didn’t get to sleep until almost 4am (with sedation!)
Woke at 8am and honestly didn’t know where I was . I thought I was still in Malta. I got up to the loo and WHAM!. I spun into a dizzy spell (vertigo) and barely made it back to the bed. Lay still for a while recalling what I thought was a gambling nightmare, but it wasn’t a dream It was true.
I grabbed the laptop to check my bank account and the losses are reflected there, in bold print.
What’s gone is gone. Call it addiction/stupidity/sin/indiscipline , whatever words we use the reality is always the same.
THE MONEY IS GONE . NEVER COMING BACK.
No matter how much I tear my hair out!
The good news is ( and I have to look on the positive side), I still have the money for the 2 big annual bills . I secured that in my husband’s post office account a few days ago , which only he can withdraw from. I lodged a cheque to my post office account yesterday instead of putting into my bank account. That takes 12 days to clear. I still have a large portion of my lump sum. I made another online request for yet another withdrawal to cover yesterday’s losses (which were exactly the amount I had transferred to my account last Tuesday.) So that’s IT. I cannot continue like this or (as IDI said) 8 more trips to the casino and I will be looking at a 0000 balance. It will take another 7 days to reach my current account so I will have enough time to buy Christmas presents ( very small gifts this year. We already agreed on that). On Monday I will go to the bank and ask to have the remainder of my Online Savings (Fund)account transferred to a Long Term account which I won’t be able to touch for a year. That will put a stop to me dipping the “Fund” account . Knowing the money was there and after my first withdrawal back in July, everything spun of of control . I am not surprised that my head went into a spin this morning. Our emotions affect our bodily functions I do agree with Louise Hay on that.
I sent hubby a text from the bed and my morning tea and toast arrived. When I finished, I made a mental list of what I would do today. No question of driving anywhere with a muzzy head (the severe spinning has subsided) so I cancelled with someone I was meant to meet. I came downstairs, began mixing my Christmas puddings. (I’ve had the fruit steeping in spirits for 36 hours). Got hubby to tie up the string on the bowls (I can’t ever do that right) and I’m now sitting peacefully, listening to the first four puddings bubbling away and there are 3 more in bowls on the worktop waiting to be boiled tomorrow. They take 7 to 8 hours so that’s my day so far. Glad you asked??LOL!
Hubby is going to lift the crib from the attic and erect it, then as the days go on we will decorate the house, one room at a time. We usually wait until December 8th to do that but taking it slowly will be more enjoyable. With two solid fuel stoves, this house needs a good cleaning also.
Thanks for all the suggestions. Yes, I agree with most of them BUT as we all know when the bug bites there is no turning back.
Having NO extra money available is what works for me.
Knowing we can be rescued by husbands or funds prevents us from reaching rock bottom.
More later……
