Sounds like that monkey on your back is really getting to you! A basttard is he? I’d agree! Time to beat him up a bit maybe? Whack him on the head with a GA meeting? Punch him in trhe gut by getting banned from that casino? Give him a bloody nose by asking your girlfriend or a family member to help you look after your money or to make you accountable for it?
Much as I hate animal cruelty it sounds like it’s time to give this particular monkey a good kicking!