well done firstly for telling him the truth before your relapse and now.
He knew that you are a CG. It’s probably his way of dealing with the pain by blocking you off. My ex was like that and it never helped the situation with us. I found it quite selfish to be honest from my ex‘s part. I loved him and had to wait until he was willing to see and communicate with me. Our problems were not about CG though as I never gambled with him the 8 years we were together.
It must be extremely painful for you but you took the right steps in suggesting to put your wages in his account.
As hard as it may be, please focus on your recovery and what steps you can take to getting back to being GF. This is your journey against your addiction and it may bring some pain with it. If your boyfriend loves you and wants a future with you, he will be by your side to support yoU. Clearly you want to overcome this relapse and I hope that he eventually sees that.
I told my husband I lost £19,000 within half an hour, minutes after it happene. Couldn’t deal with the guilt. Though he was angry and shocked by my actions, he forgave me and has been supporting me with my steps to avoid doing it again, including cancelling cards and including his name on my account.