Sacrifice is expected: “Jesus said to his disciples, ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me’” (Matthew 16:24).
I am consciously seeking the Lord now. I will deny my desire to place a bet on a favorite team today (Saturday).
If I find the excuse to do it today, I may continue to do the same thing next time.
I am aware I can only serve one master. It is either God or money.
Prevention
Writing about it was a preventive measure and a reminder. This day will come and today was one of those day. I was ready and prepared when the feeling of fear and greed arrive.
The thoughts were convincing, the feeling to go ahead was there.
The fear was there but it is not real. My money is enough, I will be safe.
The (false) confident in the bet was there but it is not 100% guarantee safe, the risk are still there, the risk is real, it can wipeout everything.
I do not need to gamble for more money.
Today I do not have more and if I gamble for more money, it is due to fear. One day I will have excess and if I gamble for more money, it will be due to greed.
I am walking down a different street now. When I want to place a bet, I will come to this thread and write it down.
My medicine is in this thread.
remarks
the urge comes in waves, first notice its presence in the morning, “I didn’t want to listen to it”. In the evening, I felt another push to do it 1.5 hours before the match begin, It was more intense, I had the ” I don’t care anymore, go ahead and do it” feeling.
fact: I do care about my recovery.