The end of day 28- starting week five tomorrow .
Feels like a kind of landmark.
I commented on a discussion on another thread about powerlessness .
I have to say I believe we are powerless over this addiction – I don’t believe we have to reach rock bottom- I believe we have to reach a place where we truly , with every fibre of our being , understand that we are compulsive when it comes to gambling and what that means .
It means we can never gamble on anything ever again for our whole lives . Someone is sure to say take one day at a time a- our whole lives is too long but in truth , once we believe we can never gamble again – one day becomes easy
If we hold even the tiniest hope that we can ever gamble normally then slips are inevitable .
If we hold even the tiniest hope that we can get that big win and walk away then slips are inevitable .
If we think that a win will solve any of our life problems – like our status in the eyes of others then slips are inevitable .
We will continue to gamble despite trying to stop many times BECAUSE we are powerless to do other wise
When we accept that we will never gamble again.
Sounds easy but it takes a phenomenal Change in our very being to really understand that – I don’t believe it’s about accepting it – I believe it’s about knowing it .
So we can praise others for the effort they put in , we can torture ourselves for the effort we didn’t but really it’s not about effort – it’s about knowing without a shadow of a doubt that we are completely powerless when it comes to walking away from any kind of gambling with anything more that a huge loss .