Hi Emma;
I was where you are two years ago. Went on holidays and there was no access for two weeks. Came home and was too busy catching up after the holidays to have time. Thought I had it licked so convinced myself i had it under control and I could gamble a bit here and there no problem. Problem. Once your brain starts to get that fix again- you know, the chemical release from the pleasure center, it wants to keep it coming. Keep up your guard and understand it’s like all other addictions. It only takes one slip and your falling again. I hope you dont succumb and you beat this. We all need to know that it can be done so we can look to our future with hope. Keep up the great work.