Greedy Thought
I was home, the weather is hot, the bed is uncomfortable., I pick up my phone and looked at the sporting odds online. There are a few matches tonight, I have choices to pick one. I knew where I had money. I am slipping into old ways.
The temptation is here in the middle my practicing how to flee from my temptation everyday. I am ready today. I am willing to give up winning.
I can walk away from a place but how can I run away from my own thought? I cannot.
Some say just treat it like a passing cloud. Do not grab the cloud, let it come and go away.
Some say treat it like a passing train, do not get on it, it will come and go.
I am not feeding my greedy thought tonight.
I did not change my attire and leave home for the betting house immediately.
Instead I switch on the air con, this is not my natural instinct. In the past, I would leave home and press the self destructive button.
I did not gamble but I am still an addict. I can still develop gambling thoughts.