@Callmecrazy Like I said for us CG’s it’s just impossible to win even if we win a million. It would not matter u know we cannot win. We can’t handle the euforia of winning and all the dopamine that’s been released. When I won big amounts of money I was still battling with myself not to play anymore. The dopamine combined with adrenaline is so dangerous.. We do things we don’t want to do. So many times I won and could get out of debt and trouble but I didn’t.
@Steev I have been following your progress buddy. The only time we win is only when we stop gambling forever. Gambling is the worst thing u can do. It will make a monster out of you. I never stole a pen in my life. Gambling made me a thief, lier and a manipulator towards my family and friends. I think a gambling addicting is underrated. People do not understand they think u are just dump flushing your money down the toilet. It is more then that. It’s the most horrible addicting a person can have. The suicide rates tell it all.
Today I am quite positive and numb I am not even mad at myself anymore like I used too. I’m kinda relieved that the money is gone so I cannot gamble anymore. I know I can’t win. I have won most of the time playing roulette but I never walked away and I probably never will. Not in a few months, years or lifetime. Every new day is a new battle. I don’t want to lose all what still is left from this ravage. I just have to forgive myself, forget and live on.
Thanks for your replies guys wish u all the best fighting this battle against the devil.