The alcohol you will need help with. The physical manifestations when you try to quit will be hard and you are more likely to relapse. Is there no one that you can go to for the alcoholism?Perhaps while addressing this you will uncover more of why you gamble as well. Dont try to go it alone. So many people suffer from this and there are so many options out there for you. I will try to be here to hear your thoughts but I am not qualified to help you. Running girl was right about just not quitting. You have to do more. You have to replace the activity with something else and in the process make yourself a better person. Of those things you can be proud and I pride you will find your strength. Find what you can do to make yourself proud of you and replace the self loathing with something much more worthy.
