Thanks you Monica, Alliesmum and Lizbeth. I have just completed nine weeks gamble free. It is so much easier to control the urges now – they Are more like fleeting thoughts but still very frequent . I am kinda inspired by Monica today – somewhere along the way I have lost confidence in my abilities – I settle for safety – maybe it’s time to push myself to apply for new jobs with higher pay . What I once expected to achieve no problem now fills me with fear – I can’t quite explain when or how this happened. I watch people with half my training, experience and knowledge fill these posts without any self doubt . I think maybe I judge myself too harshly and focus on what I don’t know instead of all I do know . Anyway I am about to push myself out of my comfort zone – and start applying. Who knows what the next year will hold . Onwards and upwards .
