It means a lot to have these conversations with you both. Just woke up after,sleeping since 6pm. Hours awake are so messed up. Vera, you are right that it was cathartic as it expressed the spiritual grief I had been feeling for so long. No I cannot paint or draw, but I can write. I have had stuff published in the late 80s early 90s but these were articles and I have not written since. I like listening to uplifting music. I watched the George Michael documentary followed by a concert last night and I found that uplifting. He had addiction issue himself, and I always find I have a lot of compassion for anyone struggling with addiction. These are life issues. It is not easy being a human being on this planet. I agree with you about confession Vera, my mum is Roman Catholic. I also remember reading a post you wrote about the power of prayer and I so agree with you about that. Our connection with our higher power and recovery is so enhanced through prayer. I will still seek,out alpha I did it and thanks for clarifying. I had read some articles and feedback about alpha and some folks did get into the Christian gay bring a sin row, which I think is wrong. Even the spiritual counsellor I saw made a point of saying being gay is a sin which I cannot endorse that view. I know pippa well and she is a good person and it is free. It is all on line. I get your apprehension Vera. I have the same in the light of my recent conversion and experience of everything I had learned was not the right path. It is Christ centred, so I will have a taste and see. One thing I have noticed is that when we have Cut off our feelings for so long through gambling, they seem to come back and fluctuate a lot i.e. We go through a lot of different emotional spaces daily. Has anyone experienced this in recovery? I now make the difference that recovery is completely different to abstinence and requires real work. I was abstinent for long periods in the five years of the addiction but I was not recovering, big difference between the two. Thanks again for posting.
