Thanks Velvet. Today is my #1 as I last gambled yesterday around 4am.
It’s way too early in my “recovery” to jump into conclusions. I do know I have to draw a line and I do know that I have to say goodbye to past losses and that I will never win back what I lost gambling. All that money is gone and I cannot win it back gambling. All I can do from this point on is not lose more. And if I manage that – it will be an amazing accomplishment.
I made a deal with myself. If I gamble again I will tell my wife. I will just have to tell her, for if you lose even a small amount of money, there will be no way around it. There will be no way for me to hide it.
Maybe I’m postponing the inevitable or maybe I’m kidding myself, but this time I somehow feel differently than all the other times when I “stopped” gambling.
We’ll see. Too early to say anything and I am a long way from home.
Thank you again Velvet