Thanks P. I got my finances kinda sorted and I immediately thought I would treat myself to new trousers – I thought this is better than gambling – and five minutes later I thought … I could try a twenty and see what I could win back …
Luckily I have banned from those sites that were tempting me . My recent gambling has not been on my own device – I am sure I could be a great researcher or genius if I put as much of my brain power into anything else . I think about gambling all the time –
Now when I think about it I think I will try a tenner , then I think I can never stop – if I blow it all I’ll be in real trouble – then I gamble anyway .
How stupid is that ? I think it through and do it anyway .
So I am dragging myself to bed kicking and screaming and desperate to gamble .
I wonder do I need to shut myself away from civilisation and live like a hermit for a few months to shut this screaming addiction down.
