Thanks Monicau for your post! I did more damage than I first anticipated. I am headed for the city mid morning to sell a few of my possessions. These are things that have no sentimental value to me. I can’t believe that I’m at this place again. This isnt the real me, someone who disregards the value of money and who doesnt have any self respect. I feel the lowest I’ve felt in a long long time. The stress takes a toll both physically and mentally. I was hoping to go to sleep and not wake up! Yes, I said it! How selfish is that? I only have this site and my friends here to turn to. I feel like the counsellor sessions aren’t helping. I pray everyday for the strength to get through this and to not want to gamble again. My little Granddaughter is sick with a viral infection. She was in the ER with a high temperature and at the Dr’s office yesterday to be checked again. It has to run it’s course. I’ve been present for my Daughter and Granddaughter. The one thing I’m grateful for right now!!! So, today i will do what I need to do and try to dig out of my hole a little. I’m going to try not to stay stuck in a deep depression. I’m going to try and like myself.
