Thanks Lizbeth and Happygirl ( I will just pick my favorite name for you68)
I looked all through the forum for your thread! Where is P?
I can’t find hers either:(
So time for some honesty. I wasn’t as brave as some and didn’t come back and post after my worst experience with gambling since I started my recovery. Well there was the horrific fight at the boat, but this other event made me feel like I had stooped lower than any other time n my gambling addiction.
I wanted to go, I let my thoughts run wild. I had been doing so well and had not posted because I wasn’t thinking about it at every turn. I had let my guard down..
I invited my daughter to go with her Dad and I!
I can barely type this. This was about a 6weeks ago. Who does something like that? I KNOW this runs in the family. I did it to lessen my guilt? So I didn’t have to feel so bad about running off. I don’t know! When we walked in and I had to show her how to do the math and I watched her start to play. I thiught I was going to vomit. I became physically ill.
She lost money, her own money and a lot of ours because we kept handing it over to her. I am glad she didn’t win. She didn’t have a great time and we didn’t stay as long as was our ususal. Basically, I am a CG that introduce gambling to my beautiful, sweet daughter.
Someone should add that to the list of questions for GA.
Are you such a low life addict that you would involve your innocent child in your schemes to lesson the feeling of guilt in that moment of weakness?
Yes X
Did it make you feel better or worse?
Like a big fat peice of crap failure as a mother and human being WORSE.
I can’t even type anymore. Seeing this in writing makes me want to cry.