Thanks for the post LAura. I am Ok, my hours now seem to be waking up at 1.30 pm and awake till 6am. Always this way when I do t have the structure of work which helps me enormously in getting a routine.
Well, it is bitingly cold out and I did go for a 20 minute walk to the shops for some chicken soup… pete left me a small walnut whip on a large plate in the fridge. The electricity is now low and need to find the fuel moneyin the next day to charge it. It is all about the basics of survival now, something I felt I had left decades ago. I am completely withdrawn from the xmas thing. I seem to go through alternate days of anger and tears and then acceptance and hope. I find these shifts difficult to deal with but decide today to be grateful for what I do have. I have read a lot of scripture about the nature of suffering. I also have read things by atheists who think god must be pretty nasty. I guess this planet is a very tough school.
Ben rings me And we briefly discuss moving in when I ask pete to leave. He needs to leave where he is and has a situation with his girlfriend which I won’t discuss on the forum but I don’t think their relationship will survive.
My usual day, watching tv in my bedroom and staying warm.
Missing my friend idi. Long time no speak!
