Well, went to sleep at 1am and up at 9am feeling very normal. Made my way through the park on way to a central London hospital and realised again that autumn is my favourite season even when it is raining, just a slight breeze in the trees.
Waited for about 45 mins for nurse appointment and pre colonoscopy. Told will have to stay overnight. All the prep means I will not be able to go to GA on weds so will have to find a meeting earlier than that. I kept kind of withdrawing thinking I don’t want to have this done… yes, it can be uncomfortable, yes we pump lots of air into your colon. Ewwwww, our bodies are not meant to go through these things. Got a headache as realised a few storm clouds in atmosphere. As soon as it passed, headache went. So sensitive to all these things. Also,I feel,quite a change of mood in central London. The calm gets replaced by a slight agitation at the crowds of people and the traffic. Well, went food shopping in Sainsbury’s. Still can’t do the lidls or aldis. Mind you, no local Ones anyway.,spent 11 quid on three meals or so. All fresh. Hurrah, no supermarket curries, macdonalds or pizzas. Bought the tiniest piece of cheese from gourmet cheese shop. Then walked through park about 2 miles home. Trees were so still, love it. Rang my mum who had this procedure annually for 20 years till,she was 80. She said it was not too bad just a bit uncomfortable and reminded me that last Xmas I was lying on the sofa with a belly ache and that really I should have it done. I,had forgotten about this and thought it was just from January I had been having symptoms. So,I guess I will have it done. Got home. Pete said oh, so,you’ve bought your own food then and then we talked through the logistics of how the food situation will work. All in all, feeling quite ok and very normal. Which is good!
