I get it I get I get it!
not mad at ya P-Its just the frustration spilling out.
I am still upset-didn’t go to my home meeting. It felt a bit pointless. XXXX gave my “therapy” and xxx responded so what did I need to be there for? Well, thats how my CG mind saw it anyway.
I did text my friend yesterday, I still don’t really understand why she is so mad at me. If the tables were turned I would be sad for her and want to help-I wouldn’t be mad AT her. This is the reaction I expected and why I delayed going back to a meeting. Great excuse that my addictive voice screamed in my ears time after time. Oh well its done but sadly I am afraid this friendship is doomed. I will not beg her to be my friend. Not sure whats going to happen to our trip come November. We will both be out about $1000 and the cruse is not refundable. Time will tell.
Stress has taken me over. I am so tired. Came home from work and slept in my bed for about 2 hours. I think thats depression. There is a meeting tomorrow but the area is a bit shaky. There is a Monday meeting that I am inclined to go to.
I did catch “Desdemona” on FB yesterday and called her on the phone last night. She is hanging in there-good for her. I also got an email from Kathryn, speak at least weekly with Laura and of course talk to Debbie a couple times a week.
I am blessed and God is good all the time.
bettie
