[i-did-it]

Thanks Jezi and Monica

It feels strange to not want to gamble. It feels strange to not see gambling as a solution. It feels strange not to be fighting urges or counting days and hours. It feels good – I hope it lasts.

I did something new this week – I stood up for myself and despite attempts to intimidate me I stood my ground and let someone know that I found their behaviour unacceptable. They are probably still recovering from the shock but OMG what an instant change in their attitude towards me, which has changed from dismissive to trying hard to get into my good books !
I have learned that being respected feels better than letting things go to avoid conflict . What a shame I had to wait half a decade to learn this!