I just got back from my parents. They knew something was up
it took me 30 min before i broke down and told them.
so ashamed . My mom wasn’t surprised and said she kenthis was going to happen again if I didn’t get the help i needed years ago: and my father was sad, he said I need to kick this or
its going to be a long hard life. My mom just gets upset and starts getting frustrated with me and yelling so I had to just leave. I don’t blame her because this has been on and
off for 10 years. There’s only so much they can take before I want to help myself. I’m torn now I told her I will go get help.
tomeoeow I’m booking an apt. She told me cancel
my vacation but I really want to get away knowing I cant
afford it. But it’s paid. I dont
know. It’s a hard week.. so lost with my
emotioN. Everything was semi normal on Friday.
Now life has changed in just 3 days. Ceazy
how this addiction can make you feel so low after a loss.
thanks for all the support. Gonna take some time to
rebuild. But I know I can. She said I can move back home with them. I think I will. Completely hibernating and no drinking, just save money and
chip away at debt.