Missed you yesterday. Thanks so much for your post, hope u ok. I fully expect not to earn what I have done previously and that is fine, but I know you understand my point. Yesterday set me back, I found it hard to sleep till 7.30am. I was called by the bailiffs first thing this morning at 8.30am. When I explained my situation they said they would write back to the court as Unenforceable. It was actually a nice lady who was very sympathetic. I browsed channels after watching the Olympics most of the night to the potters wheel on tbn at 6am and it was a rousing evangelist who talked about when God leaves you in the wilderness which is exactly where I have been left. He didn’t exactly address what to do about this but voiced the sentiments quite loudly about how it feels. I related to what he said. He ended it with time for change. I hope that this is a sign that things will truly change. I am still having only minor symptoms from my gut and hope it has all turned a corner. The one thing I do know is that negative emotions not expressed cause such harm to the body and maybe my ranting and anger in recovery when alone has been a positive healing thing. Anger issues for women in recovery are common, we are taught as kids that being angry not acceptable and we stuff it,down or end up for years like me trying to placate angry men (not an issue for ten years nowbut boy,a,lifetime getting that out of my system and finally getting it. Think I must be a slow learner on a life level……
This morning pete acknowledged he just had a couple of months to move out which is a positive development and the first time he has mentioned it since it was said, it means he is taking it seriously.
