Geordie – thanks for your comprehensive message, I’ll try and reply to your comments fully:
Is it such a bad thing to want to channel my energy into making money and recouping my losses than to wallow in self pity? If a child knocks over a lego tower and it breaks the next thing they do is to build it back up again. Am I not allowed to want to build up my cash tower again? I am merely trying other avenues to get back money I’ve spent on gambling.
I know I have a problem, I’ve admitted it myself and joining this site is a start. I have to start somewhere. I’m not lying to anyone and I’m not lying to my girlfriend I’m just not giving her the life she deserves at present.
As for recovery, diversionary methods or activities are key to relapse prevention and a keen desire to want to invest my time and energy into wanting to make money is not such a bad thing as long as I can do this appropriately. It may be that I can make money and involving my partner at every stage so that she can keep tabs on profit and loss margins. This could be a drastic change in thinking for me as previously I was spending money in ways that have been detrimental to my existence.
I’m in a good positive place at present especially as it’s day three of not gambling and I’m beginning to be realistic with my efforts towards getting rich quickly. I’m not an entrepreneur nor am I suitably positioned to make money creatively because I’m very black and white. Creative sparks just don’t fly off me, ha ha!
I’m delighted that you have taken such time and effort to respond to one of my posts and for that I am eternally grateful.