Thanks for your support and inputs idi, monica and Lizbeth.
Just woke up and I’ve decided that i will try without any medication. Been without for 2 nights now and it went ok. At least my mind is not all fogged up. On the other hand im off work and dont have to get up early in the morning so i will have to see about next week because i will have to work and sleep is important. Maybe stress caused the sudden mental and physical breakdown on Wednesday. Both body and mind just kind of went on a full on strike.
It’s a strange situation this. I used gambling to destress and im having a hard time replacing that, well yoga but i cant do that all the time. I have used gambling for so many purposes which im only fuguring out now, only took 15 years lol
Im gonna try to list them while i remember.
1. Win money to be able to redeem myself to others or to justify to myself that i can buy something i really want.
2. Destress – weird cause it caused more stress in the end
3. Escaping problems and negative thoughts / feelings
4. Self harm – yes I’ve made myself gamble as a form of self harm because I’ve thought that im not worthy of happiness
5. Reward – after a long week of work for example
6. Boredom
Ok thats all that i could come up with for now.
Have a great weekend everyone xxx