I don’t know why, but I have this feeling that if we all got together we could have a fun time, and I don’t mean gambling!!! I think sometimes I fear telling people about my private challenges and it does not help with the gambling, but I am open here and say what is bothering me. I don’t feel the same pretense or superficial way that I am at times in person. I am not sure if I am explaining myself very well.
I have been on vacation last week, along with hubby or as they call it now staycation when you don’t go anywhere LOL I will be glad to get back to work for a rest as I have been doing physical work, packing and lugging boxes. I am too heavy and out of shape that I really notice that I cant do things like I used to. I don’t think it’s my age that is the problem, it’s being out of shape. When I see people who are 80 and over running marathons and weight lifting I think it shows us that we can do things if we put our mind to it. I need to work on pushing food away from my mouth and not into it!!!
I feel as if I achieved something this week and that is the first time I have been feeling that way for a while. Also hubby achieved lots as well. The new bathroom is taking shape. The bath is installed with shower and plumbing is all working. I think the bathroom will be finished in two weeks. Our son who lives in town has been here helping one day a week for the last three weekends. Our daughter who has moved back in is helping with the painting, ripping out carpet and whatever else. We got a new bedroom window installed, thank goodness we had someone else do that. The bedroom carpet is now out the walls painted and virtually just about ready for new carpet. Our daughter will be starting with the next room ripping out the carpet soon. I have been going through all our stuff in the basement and getting rid of stuff, shredding old paperwork, packing and organizing things in large plastic containers. It definitely gives me a feeling of accomplishment. Our son, his wife and our grandkids will be here in just under two months so we still have a lot to do. We had completed the laundry room and storage area earlier. And we have decided if we get the bathroom and two bedrooms finished, then we can leave the living room area until after they have been, if we run out of time to complete it.
It is all carpeted and painted, but we just want to paint and put new carpet in. I am so focused on this it is helping keep the thoughts of gambling away. I have also been seeing a “new counsellor” again. The last one moved to another province, just as well that I don’t have abandonment issues LOL I really like the new counsellor so I am happy about that. I was having a really tough time as the anniversary of our grandbabies second heavenly birthday is coming up, but going to the counsellor is helping me. I know before that I would have ended up gambling.
I enjoy being busy and motivated, but sometimes I just cant get going. I am still looking into researching loneliness, retirement etc.
Carole, I believe that you are right in your comment about my identity and work as it is a huge part of who I am as a person. I have to go and get started doing some more stuff around here before I go to work this afternoon.
I appreciate so much all your comments and suggestions as it makes me think. Wishing each of you a wonderful gamble free day.