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I am thankful for the posts of support i really am. Things are bad, I’m in a bad way. There was no slip, blip, bump in the road this time. It was a full on frenzied relapse that has left me wanting to die and feeling exhausted and disgusted and without much hope. They are just feelings though and i would never do that to my little family but its how i feel. Not going to beat around the bush just say it how it is now. Things are bad, things are tough, but its my doing. Im an addict, i did it, its going to take me a long time to recover

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