Thanks for the reply.
We have had arguments to the point we went weeks without speaking. We connected with a marriage counseler for a few weeks. It ended when the counselor said it’s up to me if I can accept her behavior. I thought we were on the road to recovery but last night was a sign we are in trouble again.
She wanted to take a “girls” trip with her sisters and they would be going to a town that has a casino close by. When I suggested I would tag along to go see my family it did not sit well with her. so my guess is she is casino bound.
I am just tired of it and ready to jump ship. I feel if she loved me she would quit. I don’t think that will ever happen.
Im scared because right now she is in charge of paying the bills and I’m scared to look at a bank statement for fear of what I will find.