Thanks for the reply female g, its always good to see you around and hope you are keeping well, thank you for your ongoing support and help it means alot and I would never take things the wrong way I value eveyones thoughts and input.
In truth the Sunday I just had (a wonderful day at that) was a pretty normal day I would have, time with family, my wife and children, cooking a sunday roast and taking the kids for a bike ride after fixing there bikes, I do all that stuff often (and love doing it) when I choose not to gamble and when I am not working off course, if I take the gambling out of my life I am not a bad person but when I choose to gamble my whole life changes.
Just for today I am not going to gamble, day 4 gamble free I am feeling positive about things and feeling good about life, still worried about the loqn shark and no female g at the moment I am not sure where the money is going to come from to pay him, still 3 days before the first payment so plenty of time to come up with a plan, will keep you updated and please dont worry about me I will sort it all out, feeling really good and believe I have turned a corner, everything happens for a reason and I know that we just have to try and see the good through it.
Wishing you all the very best in your recovery and life, take care and stay strong, keep trying and never give in.
Maverick