Thanks for the post Geordie you are a good man.
Life has taken a massive turn for the worse in one way or another, still deep in with the loan shark ( no Geordie I didnt get him bumped off lol…..not my style) and everything seems to be conspiring against me………wait……..no……thats a lie, I am deep in trouble and in a massive whole because off the choices I have made, in all honesty I only have myself to blame.
The wife is fine and has everything she needs, the kids are all good and have everything they need, I woke up this morning and I was breathing so I am grateful for that.
Life seems to be an uphill battle but only because I make it that way, maybe oneday I will learn to be content, I am exhausted, emotionaly drained, totaly perplexed and feel the walls closing in on me………….but it is all off my own doing I cannot blame anyone else bar myself.
“Just for today I will not gamble” my last bet 10th April 2016, If I gamble again I wont have long left in this world.
Thanks for listening and as always I wish you all the very best in your recovery and life, take care and never give up trying.
Maverick