Thanks idi. The thing about having nothing is thatyou can’t actually do anything so I just stay in bed. Just taking a bus journey is something to consider as to whether I have enough money for a bus. I have, however, reached the same conclusions as you only just recently over the last 24 hours in that we have force ourselves to do things, The olympics have been quite wonderful and I was feeling a little sad that they have now finished. Great for insomniacs and all night awake people such as me. Wonderful closing ceremony. I have at least rediscovered my interest in history and geography, watching tv programmeson the Tudors and lots of Michael Palin travel programmes. I haven’t listened to the news for months and don’t watch soaps or trashy reality tv. I have changed so much over time as to what I will expose myself to and I actuall don’t think I am alone in this.
And yes, your suggestion about an open all the time group is a good one. I don’t feel able to comment to new people on the forum which I used to do, just speak to new folks in the groups, as I don’t feel like recovery has happened yet for me even though I am today 195 days clean. How can I talk about recovery, the joys of buying things when it just hasn’t happened to me. So I guess some of it is self preservation. Dreadful isn’t it, but I still live in hope that things will shift soon. The lower my mood goes, the worse things are, so I have to make great efforts to shift it when it occurs. Some of 8t is down to lack of good food and long waits for food in the day. Incidentally, I,don’t eat or like tomato based sauces. Any other suggestions?
