hello things are ok thanks for asking. I haven’t gambled since November 20. I actually snuck back into the casino and won all of my money back that I lost in the past 2 months, I left. I went back this previous Thursday like a true gambler saying ok I am back even agaib (for this recent binge) I’ll never be even from the 50-70k I’ve lost in my 10 year addiction. When I snuck back in again this Thursday before I can place my first bet of blackjack , two security gurds approach me and ask if I am banned, I tried to lie and say no but then I cracked and admitted I am banned. They re took pictures of me once again. Now I cannot go back, the security guard made a joke at me saying at least I am leaving with money for once. I am very greatful to have won my money back that I recently lost, after winning and losing it several times, I’ve realized I’m not happier than when I didn’t have it, that’s what makes me realize I wasnt even addicted to the money, more the rush of gamblinG. I have now enrolled in counselling and feel a bit more secure with a little savings in my bank account. I hope everyone has the courage to stop this disease, you see even after I broke even again, I went back thinking I can win more, I am happy they kicked me out this time, or the cycle would viciously continue. now I have not gambled since the 20. And Day by day I slowly lose the urge. happy holidays to all, thanks for checking in. God bless
