Well its been a very tough couple of days, My mother sent me emails yesterday but the emails did not make much sense, since they were asking questions of which I had already explained in depth in my email of sordid life confessions. I asked her had she received the email explaining about Gordon moody etc, I then got an email back saying I have looked up Gordon Moody it is a site for people with gambling problems, I am glad that is not your problem though! So today, I said I will send you the original email again as either she has lost her memory or she has just not received it. So, there was me thinking yesterday that well she has got it and at least she is still speaking to me, all is not lost, but it turns out she never got the email in the first place!
I was then thinking can I really put myself through this again, resending its been awful the last three days I cant repeat ever.
So to cut a long story short (well I can but try) I have now had an email to say she has now received it and is going to a town in the UK to pick up her car and she will write later.
I went to the docs last night for my usual appointment he ahs changed my medication, but since I have done a lot of research on them, apparently they are given to anorexics and huge long threads with folk putting on like 2 stones in three weeks, I am not taking them, as I am trying to set my goal to return to work after the Easter holidays, last thing I want is to go back three stone heavier than I left they think I been having a great time sitting on my rear scoffing my face all day!
He also said if these don’t work he will have to send me to the shrink, I had to stop myself from saying even you have had enough of me then!
I still have the original medication so will have to go back before next apt to sort that out, next apt meant to be in two weeks time.
These damn head vibrations are still there in fact getting worse, it does not hurt but never experienced anything like it before, boom boom vibrate vibrate ….
My shoulders are heavy, my burdens are many …..
