Appreciate the welcome! It’s going to be a long road and I’m hopeful I am finally ready for the challenge… Made it through day one and I’m alive! One big obstacle for me is going to be repaying the latest losses and conveying to some not so nice people that it‘s going to take a bit longer than they’d like but I mean theres not much else I can do other than be honest and pay my debt. I think once that’s done it will be a bit easier to see some clear reward other than just the ease on mental stress of not putting all my time and thought into gambling.
I met Charles yesterday in the new members chat and found the chat to be great… He put me into these forums will most likely continue visiting those and also using the forum threads a lot, I truly feel this is a useful tool in the process as it’s been mind blowing reading these posts and realizing it’s not uncommon and really being able to resonate with a lot of the posts from fellow members.
I don’t have all the answers what so ever but I do feel I am on the right track and am aggressively strategizing a way to succeed in my mission… Im looking into meetings mentioned to me by a memeber here through smart recovery, I did GA for a few sessions many moons ago and found it wasn’t really for me. That may have been due to the fact I wasn’t really ready to be there or the fact that none of the memebers there at the meetings I attended were close to my age or were struggling with sports betting so I may also give GA another shot. I work a lot somewhat by choice to repay debt faster and somewhat due to a heavy workload for the past 9 months so the getting to meetings part may be tough at times but hope to make one either today or tomorrow, I feel those combined with trying to be on here daily at least for a good while should help a lot… as I said I really resonated with several posts on here and it’s been amazing just not feeling so alone!
Again thanks for the welcome and will continue to update for all and as a record of my own journey!