Thanks. Day #20 today. I didn’t think this would happen (although I could have expected it), but I do have cravings today. Haven’t had any for a few days, but now they’re back.
Probably because I watched a friend play poker online. Can I really be so sick that even watching other people gamble makes me want to do the same. After all the horrible things gambling has done to me?
The truth is I love gamblers, I love socializing with them and being around them. They don’t judge you, they don’t have prejudices, they’re generally a nice, fun bunch.
But I know it my heart of hearts that I have to give up that aspect too if I want to be gambling free. I know there’s no way I can hang out with those people and not gamble, not give in to my urges with them around. It’s just impossible to be around gamblers and not gamble if you’re a cg.