Thanks Chris, l told him that I’m happy for my pay to go into his bank account etc and I’ll do whatever it takes to repair it and get on the right track with both him and CG. I asked to see him tonight to talk in person earlier today and he said no, I asked again not too long ago and he suddenly has friends over tonight even though he told me he has to get up early tomorrow morning. So understandbly his hurt & he needs more time. I just need to know whether his going to give me a chance. He told me he would call me tonight.
This is my first relapse with him in my life and I didn’t think he would take it to heart so much, he keeps telling me I lied to him.because I never called him last night to discuss my urges and that he had a feeling I was a user. These words etch deep inside me like a sharp knife. Tomorrow doesn’t seem so bright and I don’t know what to do financially as I have no money for the next 30 days, this all seems trivial though in light of losing him.