Butchugly, thanks for the encouragement and support. I can’t even see myself stopping but I so much want to. That’s why I’m taking one day at a time. For now, I am not gambling only because I have no money to gamble, so it is no test for me. My biggest test is when I get paid again. I’m struggling with managing to address the non payment on my company card which I should have paid from my expense payment but through it right back in to gambling. I have no control. I’m trying to pick up the pieces of my life and be realistic about my future. I just want to be normal again and enjoy the simple things in life like cycling and gym I was passionate about. Needless to say I’ve put on weight from the binge eating as I’m a comfort eater and my pain, guilt and shame results in this.
I hope it gets easier…….
