Hi Happy
Thanks for that. I know you can do it, as wel all can. I just need to face up to the facts of what gambling has done. But if it wasn’t gambling it would be something else. I have been using various addictions to paper overthe cracks in my life.
I do hope that I can get through this, because if I can’t it will kill me. Or I will kill me, and I don’t think I want that.
I have broken a lot of myself in this process, I never once last year sat down and thought “what happens if you keep gambling, where will it end”. This is where it ends.
I wish I was more self aware, smarter. I see on this posts lots of people giving up and working hard – I feel I have screwed myself doubly as I don’t have a job. I think if I had a job it might be easier.
You have always been really nice, I hope you can stop gambling one day at a time.
Thanks and love
Mav